70km/h, i tink tats my max for today.=) Bt driving with so many cars around u is still kinda scary...n i got hon by some other car at da traffic light. Opps sorry cant u c im a L-er? N this time, im driving a car for REAL. Thanks sifu=)

Frens around me...i guess most of them r goin to hav their college life very soon. N me? Sigh. I hav to wait for news on scholarships tat i applied. As long as theres no news...i'll be goin form6, sigh. Im starting to feel tat im selfish nw, i dun lyk it when affordable families apply for scholarships. It made me feel so so terrible, life is so nt fair. I reli think i deserve to hav one, tat is y im so so desperate nw. Im putting hope on them n wat if...wat if i cant get? Theres 2000+ ppl with straight As u noe...wat m i expecting? Still, i noe, i noe its nt right to feel selfish...everyone has an even chance. Im juz...so sick to think any further...

About overseas...i've cried for it once already. N for that one time, i've firmly decided nt to go oversea for studies... I was looking at my mum thay day, she accidently sit on a wet chair when i was queueing up to order dinner with my dad. She look so helpless...so lost, i can say like a kid, cause her pants was wet all over... Shes gettin old. (Oh god im already crying jz to hav a think of it...) If i were there none of that would happen...can u understand hw did i felt? It was so so heartbroken to see my own mum being lyk tat, tears struggled so hard nt to show themselves. Whos goin to take care my mum when im gone? My dad n bro?Hah! I'll nvr trust them on taking care of my mum. They cant b depend on. N in fact, i tink my dad is da reason for my mum to b lyk this. He doesnt hav sense of love. I cant leave u mum, i reli reli cant. I'll regret for life nt to spend every i hav in my life to b with u. Mum, i love you.....

Gosh i nid u nw my dear...

luv,
chyng
18/3 16:24